Lovers Dream:

I'm still trying to figure out, the actions behind affection. The words of love are thrown into the air with no importance at all. Gossipers news; your late and out of date...off time and forgetful of your important event! Jumping infront of a moving bullet, do you really think thats a good idea? All to prove your true devotion to your partner? If he makes you cry,hurt you emotionally, break your inner defense then dont stay. But I understand, with a child by him you feel forced to stay because you dont want the childs life to be fatherless like yourself. Grief,stress,pain,and anger! Remove the problem, talking is not working, dont try to rewire your brain to take his insults as compliments. Pain boils in my gut as I watch you, isolate yourself and burry your face in your hands as you try to smother the weeps, your tears are strong enough to show an outsider like myself just how much you love him...but his ways of affection are ...different, he does not love you with his heart, he only loved you with his eyes. You bore his child and he gave you pain, release the shakles and break free. You deserve better, although he is my blood, I know right from wrong and how he behaves infront of company is just WRONG! Heed my warnings and do make the effort to leave, I truely do hate to see you cry.